CM Journal Pages 9: Does the
Ego Exist?Are you confused about the human ego? The dictionary defines the ego as: the
"I" or self of any person; a person as thinking, feeling, and willing, and distinguishing itself from the selves
of others and from objects of its thought. Ummm. Sounds benign enough but unfortunately there is another context that
has become much more prevalent these days: egotism; conceit; self-importance. This negative connotation of the human ego is what many of the popular religious and spiritual teachings maintain
we need to rise above and/or transcend. This way of thinking actually stems from the fundamental delusion that there
is something inherently wrong with humans; that there will always be some flaw or behavior that makes us "unworthy"
and for which we need to atone. The result is an internal conflict within which fosters the question, "how can we be
worthy of God, or of being God, when we are so imperfect?" We find ourselves at constant war within - the spiritual self
against the lower ego self. We disconnect ourselves from the truth of who we are; whole and magnificent creators. Here we go again: The Fundamental DelusionThe problem lies in the delusion
that we are somehow separate from God, due to our inherent flaws and are only here on earth to work our way back. Saying that
we are flawed with this imperfect ego is the same as saying that God has made a mistake which is a dishonoring of our Creator.
Your ego was specifically designed and created to serve a function in duality and to facilitate the creation of your experiences.
How could it be otherwise?
Personally I believe that our personalities
are far too complex to be simplified into boxes such as the ego and I question the very existence of a separate, negative
entity called "ego". For every unconstructive attribute of what the flawed ego is supposedly made of, you
can just as easily find a positive gift and purpose. The saying is: every vice is a virtue and vice versa. What if there was no such thing as the flawed ego?Many argue that our ego is
where the undesirable and immature behavior patterns of humans reside. But perhaps there is another way to consider this. When
a two-year-old throws a temper tantrum because his toy has been taken away, do we say that this child is flawed because he
is upset? No. Behavior like this is typical for a two-year-old and no one questions that. Eventually as
the child matures and grows in wisdom, he might even offer to share his toy.
Instead of thinking that humans are inherently flawed (which implies God has made a mistake) what I am suggesting is that
everything that has happened in individual lives and thus far in the evolution of human consciousness has been created on
purpose, and that we are simply growing up. Characteristics of the ego that seem immature are a necessary part of the evolution.
Saying that a mature ego is better can be no more valid than saying a forty year old is a better person than a two year
old. It's simply a natural and necessary process of growing up, spiritually speaking.
Contemplate the writings of W. Timothy Gallwey in The Inner Game of Tennis.
The RoseWhen we plant a rose seed in the earth we notice that it is small,
but we do not criticize it as "rootless" and "stemless." We treat it as a seed, giving it the water
and nourishment required of a seed. When it first shoots out of the earth we don't condemn it as "immature"
and "underdeveloped"; nor do we criticize the buds for not being open when they appear. We stand in wonder at the
process taking place and give the plant the care that it needs at each stage of its growth. The rose is a rose from the time
it is a seed to the time that it dies. Within it, at all times, it contains its whole potential. It seems to be constantly
in the process of change; yet at each state, at each moment, it is perfectly all right as it is. Born on Purpose As ISIn the same way that we don't judge a two year old,
neither does God judge us. We are progressing perfectly as planned and there is nothing inherently flawed about
the human experience. There is no devil or force to fight against; no ego of man to fight against. There is only
God and the acting out of an experience.
So why does it take
so long to grow in consciousness? Well, when you've got an eternity what else are you going to do?
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